Facing Defeat

Recently I applied to be a Discovery Educator Guru and unfortunately I was not accepted. The list of those that were accepted is amazing and I'm certain they will represent the DEN well, but I am still disappointed that I was not accepted. And of course my wonderful husband gave me the pep talk that I shouldn't be too disappointed because I've gotten so many other things in my professional career - which is true. I got a teaching job pretty much right after graduating college, I was accepted into master teacher programs, I was offered my current position despite the fact that I didn't have the "preferred" master's degree, I've presented at several conferences, and I've been able to represent the DEN in a number of other ways. 
Still, this one hit me hard and I had to work to push myself through it. I had to tell myself that only five were accepted and those that were accepted were clearly more experienced and qualified than I am. That I need to keep doing what I am doing as it does make a difference to a number of people. In the end what really helped me to push past that disappointment is my children, especially my fourteen year old. I had told her how excited I was about the possibility of becoming a DEN guru and she knew that I had not been accepted. I knew that I had to accept this defeat gracefully not only for myself, but also as an example to my girls. I feel it is important that they see me being a strong person working to improve the system of education in any way that I can. In that process there will be defeats, and I feel that those need to be seen as learning opportunities and that if I can show that to my children I am actually benefiting from that defeat.


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